ANGELICAXTINA

Ever since I pondered on the thought of having everyone equal in my line of priorities, I’ve actually found it easier. Every time I’d ask myself “Why does it have to always be me who thinks of the topic of our conversations?” it gets easier to step back and say “Why care?” or “Why bother?” It gets easier. It gets easier to simply not care if people disappoint me. Yea, maybe it is kind of… heartless? I dont exactly know what negative adjective there is to describe what is happening. As I can foresee, this wont last; but this is quite relieving for the moment. 

Lesson learned: Let the pancakes cool first before putting whipped cream!

Been there. Been that.: I get it, Liz and Greg! He's really not that into me.

jettiblog:

Kung mabibisita kayo sa Casa Mapang-akit, isa lang ang bukud-tanging libro na makikita n’yong lasug-lasog at wala nang front cover. Ito nga yung He’s Just Not That Into You (HJNTIY). You can’t blame me, marami na rin kasi ang mga nanakit sa akin in the past. Haha! Pinapapatawad ko na kayo, don’t…

I’ve been eating a lot of sweets lately. Even had 2 bowls of Nerd of the Rings yesterday. Nooooo!

Anyway, I just noticed, minsan, and I mean MINSAN, lang ako maging sweet, tapos, um, madalas, it goes unnoticed. Kasi, when I think of something that one may consider “sweet” to say to a person, it’s so random, that maybe the people I say these things to just go like “WTF is happening to Gecca?” Well, that’s all really. I can’t say that things go unappreciated because I don’t know that for sure. Maybe people just get confused. Haha! Like, once I said “You are such a great person. Keep believing in yourself.” in the middle of my conversation with a friend, and the response was “Are you singing?” (because we were just texting lyrics of a song). I guess it was just unnoticed, maybe that’s it. Not unappreciated but unnoticed, AND weird, because it’s so random. LOL!

Oh well, good morning! =)

Not yet 4 A.M. but nearly, so this counts

My favorite movie, with my favorite director, Tim Burton

Well, I guess it’s no secret to my friends that Alice in Wonderland (2010) is one of my favorite movies ever. I even made it the theme for my 18th birthday party. What makes this movie so special? Well, I just find it so playful, witty, and amazingly genuine; not to mention the awesome and sexy actor who plays the Mad Hatter. ;) Like most of Tim Burton’s films, the story and everything else is divine! I’ve practically watched this over 20 times now. There are a lot of underlying wisdom in this movie, I think. I just hope that people get it despite the overwhelming cinematography. In the movie, the characters that lived in this world Alice dubbed Wonderland kept saying, “It’s the wrong Alice” whenever they see her. The phrase just stuck to me eversince I watched the film and I even used this as my description in Twitter. Of course, I needed to replace Alice with Gecca. Is it weird? Lol, why am I even asking this? Frankly, I dont care.

Maybe, the first time you watch the film, the phrase won’t matter that much and it’ll take a while to process the thought that the whole film practically revolves around that phrase.

“It’s the wrong Alice.”

Why the wrong Alice? Is it because she came back a different person? Is it because the characters pictured Alice as their hero and this one doesn’t act like one? Is it because she has lost her muchness?

*segwey* Im having a hard time organizing my thoughts. *

People always have this specific picture of you, like “Hey, it’s the twins” (like twins aren’t different individuals and are perceived as one) or “Hey, it’s that girl who likes to take pictures” or “Hey, it’s the emo girl” or “Hey it’s the girl with the big boobs.” Whatever we do, we cannot do away with the labels that are almost bestowed upon us by the people around us. It’s inevitable in the human world. Sometimes, we get attached too much to these labels that we tend to forget who and what we really are if we take away all the names that people call us. Just like Alice, I guess, we need to be in a specific place - Wonderland - or with specific people or in a specific situation in order for us to find our true form, the real Alice. In the 2010 movie, Alice has already grown up and finds herself in the brink of making an important decision in her life - whether to get married or not. This pushes her to be cautious about her surroundings and finds peculiar observations, like a familiar rabbit. Whenever I find myself in situations that force me to make important decisions, I step back and think. Unfortunately, I think too much and eventually end up not making the decision. Sometimes, I hope to be able to go to a Wonderland to find the right answers and the right Alice, but that’s not going to happen. Haha! In this world, it’s not that difficult for one to loose her muchness and to think that the wrong Alice is who she really is; but yea, I guess we just need thatour own Wonderlands in order to remember who we really are and not who people perceive us to be. People can name names and can say you’ve changed or that you are not yourself, but only you can know whether you are yourself or a different one - one that you wish not to be. Does that even make sense?

Everybody wants to act like they’re all grown up and shit, but the truth is, most of the time, we’ve only just grown old. Growing old with nothing but one-sided perspectives and nothing but regrets about what we should have done. Well, reality check, THIS is who and what you are now, so stop acting like a wuss and face it.

There is a difference between reacting and responding to what is happening in your life. You wanna play the role of the damsel in distress waiting for your prince to sweep you off your feet and change your life for good? Go right on ahead to the path of eternal dependence. Fck the inconsistencies. Hell, fck the consistencies. You are the only one driving yourself crazy.

Whatever it is that you think is the proof for your maturity, it’s something that is so narrow and fragile that if ever it is there and it does exist in the world we know to be real, it can be screwed up with just the blink of an eye. No one measures maturity, except for psychologists I guess. Those who are mature, well they have no business telling people they are. They just are.

Go ahead! Wallow in your misery your whole life, and yea, let the whole world wallow in your misery and the fucked up decisions you made and will continue to make; because that’s what you love to do, isn’t it? You drag everyone to hell, just like in the movie.

And no, don’t you dare point out who is childish and immature, because these are two very different concepts. There is a fine line between being childish and immature, and I bet the latter would never admit to being so. A child is characterized by innocence, whereas the lack of maturity is otherwise.

Why point these things out, you say? Just because…

That parable of the workers in the vineyard

Earlier today we discussed about the different literary genres of the Bible and we came across this parable. Well, there are different interpretations that my classmates and I were able to formulate, but basically we concluded that this just means that first, last, second, or fifth - it doesn’t really matter when entering the Kingdom of Heaven. Moreover, not everything needs to be counted.

Now, Im not the number one fan of blogging about Christian teachings because, well, just because; but right now it seems relevant since my only summer class just so happens to be about the Bible.

I’ll just make this a really quick and simple post. Why do people think that everything needs to be counted? Like the number of hours one helps out in the family business for the whole summer vacation? Really? Is it my job to sell now? Do I need to spend the same hours there as your good-ass kid? Is it not enough that I help out whenever I feel like it? Will that not work? After all, it’s better to do for the sake of doing, isn’t it? An obligation can be something that is self-driven; but if I choose not to like whatever it is that I’m supposed to do, well, will it be better for you to push me to do this not even half-heartedly, but without heart? Not everything can be counted, not everything needs to be counted. It’s already hard for me to stay quiet while you nag all day/week/month/year long so… Keep calm, keep calm. *sigh*

Ruby’s summer nails and bracelets

This is one of the shots from our Saturday photowalk in Intramuros. =) As any photoshoot I’ve done so far, t’was tiring, but very satisfying.

I think it’s about time I talked about this amaaaaaazing dessert I just oh-so love. If you love the sour candies known as Nerds, sweet cereals known as Froot Loops, and the sweet/sour fruit known as ze Mango; well, you’re in for a treat! Growing up a fanatic of Nerds, Mangoes and Froot Loops, you can just imagine the warmth this cold dessert brings to me. There’s just something about the perfect mix of sour and sweet flavours that makes me all giddy - yes, giddy!

You can check out the other cereal flavours Cerealicious has. They’re named after blockbuster films and are pretty amazing! My favourite, as you can already see, is named after the Lord of the Rings, which is ironic because I’ve never really gained interest in this movie. Most of the flavours available have chocolate ingredients in them, which I rarely like, so the discovery of this tasty flavour is just heaven for me. You are given the choice of whether or not to put ice cream on top (like the photo I posted previously). I always do, but this time they forgot to put the scoop of vanilla ice cream I ordered, and I just realized this after I took photos of the bowl. Don’t you just wanna dive into that bowl of yumminess?

It’s been a long time since I had one of these

Yes, I guess I overdid it, but hey, I’m practising! These shots were taken during a ride home. Yup, night lights!

Heart Bokeh in mi Slurpee!

My favorite: “Nerd of the Rings” from Cerealicious

forgot to put watermark though

Maybe it is better not to have “best friends.” Maybe it is better for one to treat friends as equals. Maybe that is better: that no one is above another when it comes to priorities but yourself, that you wouldn’t have to get too attached to people whom you know will always end up hurting you, that you can never trust people enough, that they will never answer your questions but then you can’t get mad because they don’t matter that much to you, and that you can’t know what’s behind the smiles and tears and you won’t have to bother to know because they will not tell you. Maybe you are too afraid to trust people with your heart, and maybe that’s okay. Maybe that wall is up again.

The thing is, yea, people might tell you that you are aware that you find it hard to trust people and you don’t do anything about it, but why bother wanting to change what they think of you? If they like you, they like you. If they don’t, then they don’t. Why bother?

Bokehs have fascinated me ever since I took an interest in photography and this can be evidently seen in my photos, so I tried something new today. Of course, professional equipment and kits are necessary for these shots, but trying this by myself didn’t cost me a dime. Resourcefulness and determination is all there is to it, I think. Of course, love and passion for the craft goes a long way. Turns out, Im attracted to blurry or vague things. Any relevance to my personal preferences? Well, Im not so sure.

Here’s a collage of the photos from my first heart bokeh experiment. As I’ve reserched, lighting makes all the difference. Sadly, I wasn’t able to find a decent subject for this experiment and there weren’t enough lights to portray the picture I had in my mind; but these photos aren’t so bad for a first-timer, wouldn’t you say? Will try this trick every now and then during shoots. Eventually, I shall reveal how this is done, once I get the hang of it.

05.03.12.

“It’s the simple things in life we forget” -Usher, Simple Things

There could be a million things in one day that can make you and your soul smile. Here are the list of things that made me smile today, the ones that I remember at least (in no particular order):

1. Studying the Bible

2. The songs that are in my playlist right now

3. Chito’s “family picture” in “Iisang Sarap” by Parokya ni Edgar

4. The text message I got from my friends whom I rarely get to see

5. The Nerd of the Rings cereal that I ordered in Cerealicious (thanks to http://crumpledglass.tumblr.com/ for the photo of my cereal, although the photo is not from this day)

6. The Chicken Pesto Pasta that I ordered in Cerealicious

7. Meeting new people

8. Rally racing with best friends and new people (Finding it hard to upload from my phone, so no photos for this number for now)

9. My new haircut which seems to have had little difference, but feels so much better ;)

10. Winning in Monopoly Deal

11. The gesture one of my best friends did when I won in Monopoly Deal

12. “Gecca si *bleep* oh” “Hi!” *smiles* *smiles back*

13. Mocha capuccino I drank tonight

14. Reading people’s replies to another one of my best friend’s group message using my phone (especially the message I got from the USG president)

15. The eye glasses Im wearing right now

16. The fact that these best friends of mine got to visit us for the first time in Taft. Yay! 

17. My siblings